I love writing these little “life lately” posts, almost as much as I love reading them on other people’s blogs. I always find it quite therapeutic to pour onto the page what I’ve been up to, and what I’ve been thinking and feeling, every so often — it’s always nice to look back on in years to come and to see what, if anything, has changed.
This week marks the end of an era for me in many ways, as it was my last week in my current job role before I say adios to my comfort zone and start a life of freelance TV work. Yesterday was my last day working as a TV production researcher for BBC Bargain Hunt, after spending two years working my way through the ranks with an absolutely fantastic team. It was so strange to say goodbye and I can honestly say that I’ve absolutely loved my time there. I’ve made amazing friends, have had some incredible experiences and opportunities, but I knew it was time for me to make a move.
Honestly, moving onto other productions was something I was considering at the start of the year, but I didn’t think it would happen as quickly as it did. However, I’m a huge believer in fate and circumstance, so when the opportunity was presented to me I snapped it up with both hands. I will be leaving the comfort of permanent work for new challenges and experiences, and hopefully some really fun adventures, as I navigate my way through contract-to-contract life.
And this terrifies me. I’ve always been a gal who loves a plan, so the fact that I don’t know what I’ll be doing or where I’ll be working in a few short months scares me. The spontaneity though is something I can definitely get on board with; in fact, it’s something I need to get on board with. I’m looking forward to seeing where this takes me along the career path, and although it means jumping head first out of my comfort zone, I know this is what needs to be done in order to progress.
As if that isn’t terrifying enough, today I am hopping on a flight to New Zealand to visit my boyfriend whom I haven’t seen for 5 months. I am so freaking excited but also so nervous! If somebody told me this time last year that I’d be solo flying to New Zealand – that’s a 25 hour flight – then I would’ve never believed them. I’ve never been on a plane alone before, and the furthest I’ve flown is to Canada with most holidays being to Europe. But I am going and I know this is going to be a huge milestone for me.
I’ve always been a bit of a control freak — I like to know what I’m doing and when I’m doing it. While I’m fiercely independent in a lot of ways, I like the reassurance of having somebody there to help if I need it. But this year is all about change and I’m determined to make the most of life, after always focusing on settling myself in a career and home. Now I feel is the perfect time to explore, be spontaneous and to just get out there, so this trip will definitely be a turning point for me.
I’ve never been one for change but now I’m looking forward to it. There is beauty in the unknown and I’m going to do my damn hardest to embrace it. I hope that leaping out of my comfort zone is the right decision, only time will tell, and if not then life is a learning curve. What is quite calming is the fact that in a few short months I will know what I’m doing for the foreseeable, and there is something quite nice about being free.
Lots of love. xoxo