Last year I learned the power of saying “no”. I felt like at the end of 2017 I’d got myself into a bit of a sticky situation. I was hanging out with people I didn’t necessarily like, who didn’t bring any positivity into my life, and I realised that I was becoming someone who I didn’t really want to be. I made the decision to wave goodbye to those social situations, surrounded myself with good people and slowly felt like I found myself again.
It was quite liberating actually, as though a part of my being was hovering above certain situations and I could see myself making decisions for myself instead of for everybody else, and I can honestly say I’ve come out of 2018 feeling stronger, more empowered and happier than I have been for an extremely long time. It’s refreshing and now I know where my priorities lie, and what I want to do, it’s time to start saying “yes”.
Yes to spontaneous plans and road trips with friends, that see me winding up in a new place I’ve never visited before. Yes to crazy challenges, like flying to New Zealand to spend three weeks galavanting around the islands with someone who is as spontaneous as can be. Yes to new opportunities, that see me pushed right out of my comfort zone. I want to do new things, see new places, meet new people and basically, I want to worry less about three things:
1. What people will think: I always feel like I owe people loyalty, when sometimes the only person you need to be loyal to is yourself.
2. The monotony of work and routine: I hate to say it but I feel like I’m a slave to the grind sometimes, and not having a plan really throws me, so I want to try and go with the flow a little more.
3. Spending a little money: That’s not to say I’m going to splurge and splash the cash, I’ll always be a Sensible Sonia, but I do need to remember that I work hard and deserve to enjoy too.
One of my goals for 2019 is to be more spontaneous, a little more carefree. I’ll never shake off the anxious feelings I get when I don’t know the plan, and I’ll never be someone who can live without routine; but I’m going to try my bloody hardest to go with my heart, and to embrace opportunities rather than overthinking the logistics surrounding them.
I want to say yes to travel. I’ve said it time and time again on this blog, but I really want to see, to learn, and to embrace new cultures. To enjoy hotter climates, to hike in beautiful mountains, to get my nerd on at museums in various capital cities. I also want to say yes to more time spent with friends, instead of trying to get by on my own all the time. A problem shared is a problem halved, and I’m lucky to have such wonderful people around me. I want to go to more events, whether that’s to outdoor theatre shows or street food markets. I want to say yes to being creative, to taking time to work on my blog and getting out there and taking photographs more.
I feel like I’m finally finding my feet. I know who I am, what I want to do and where I want to be. Now it’s all about taking the opportunities to get there.
Lots of love. xoxo