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Learning to accept fate and go with the flow.

I am a creature of habit. I love being organised. I make lists, I have daily rituals that I live by, I plan my week in my diary and, annoyingly, I find it really, really difficult to be spontaneous. I’ve always been this way and not having a routine sends me into a bit of a (read: huge) frenzy, but after making a decision a few months ago that’s thrown my life into a bit of a whirlwind I’m finding more and more that I’m having to step outside of my comfort zone – and I’m kind of loving it. 

Up until this year, I pretty much had my life all planned out. I worked hard in school as I knew what university I wanted to go to, and I knew what I wanted to study. I worked hard in university, I got accepted onto an MA course that I had wanted to do for years. Then, after a short stint of figuring out what I wanted to do, I worked really fucking hard and managed to secure myself a job that I loved. I’m pretty good at making decisions, and once I’ve made one I will do everything in my power to ensure it’s fulfilled.

When it came to my personal life, I’d been in a relationship for a pretty long time and from a pretty young age. It was going the way that most relationships go; I expected for us to start looking towards a future together. Then life happened. I realised this wasn’t ultimately what was best for me, and I decided to end said relationship, which I’d been in for nearly six years. I threw myself into the unknown, went ahead with my plan to own a home, got my perfect gal’s pad, and now I’m not looking back. Instead, I’m looking ahead to the next adventure.

The upheaval that swept across my structured life like a mini tornado taught me that there is beauty in the unknown. It’s good to not have a plan sometimes. Life never works out the way you want it to, and ultimately believing in fate and having the hope that everything will eventually work out for the best is what’s important.

Next up on the list is to live a little more. At the moment, I’m feeling very happy with where I am in life and what I’ve done thus far. I love my job, I’m keen to try new things, to slowly but surely climb the ladder, and to work hard to achieve that. I’ve got my lovely flat, and I want to continue to add those personal touches and make it completely my own. I’m enjoying my gym training, blogging and photography. I have a great group of friends, and I’ve moved away from potentially toxic situations to ensure I’m being the best person I can be. And one thing I’ve realised more than ever this year is that I love to travel, and I want to do more of it, even if I plan every minute detail before stepping on that plane.

That’s not to say I’m going to pack everything in and start island hopping across Greece any time soon (although it’s definitely on the list!). I’ve never been one of these people to move on in life without a plan. I never will be. But I’m trying to go with the flow a little more, and am just letting things be. And it feels pretty good.

Lots of love. xoxo

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26 Comments

  1. Mlle Coconath
    August 24, 2018 / 4:58 pm

    It's important to concentrate on the present and let the future make itself out. Great post dearxx Mademoiselle Coconathhttp://mllecoconath.com

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 10:11 am

      Thank you xx

  2. Shannon Boyce
    August 24, 2018 / 11:03 pm

    I love how honest and open you were in this post. While unplanned events and life changes can be scary…it is wonderful that you have been able to really flourish. I am someone who likes planning every little detail and gets anxious with change and last minute plans, but I'm working on it. So I definitely relate!the-creationofbeauty.blogspot.com

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 10:11 am

      Thank you Shannon! That's lovely of you to say πŸ™‚ xx

  3. Eve Johnson
    August 25, 2018 / 8:16 am

    Really well written post! πŸ™‚ I thoroughly enjoyed reading it. I can relate so much to needing to live in the moment and go with the flow. I have been really overthinking the future recently and worrying about whether I'll be where I want to be, but I have come to the realisation that you can't really plan the future that much, so it's important to enjoy and appreciate where you are right now and all the things around you. I am really loving your blog at the moment – so honest and so relatable. Xxx

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 10:10 am

      Thanks so much Eve πŸ™‚ That's very kind! No, it's so hard but life is meant to be a bit spontaneous! xx

  4. Danielle Alexa
    August 25, 2018 / 4:12 pm

    I feel like this post just speaks to me. I have OCD, so every little thing in my life is planned out in fine detail and it would be so lovely just to life in the moment!Danielle xxhttps://www.fashionbeautyblog.co.uk/

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 10:09 am

      Ahh thank you for reading – it seems there are lots of us who feel the same! xx

  5. Elena Isabelle
    August 26, 2018 / 8:53 am

    I massively believe in fate. I have worked hard all my life to have a good outline but I like letting things happen they way they are supposed to and it feels so good.❀︎www.elenaisabelle.com

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:51 am

      Yes fate is definitely a good thing to believe in, but you do have to help it out along the way! xx

  6. Jasmin Charlotte
    August 26, 2018 / 1:02 pm

    I know how you feel!! I'm trying the same – to live in the moment and stop stressing about the future a little more! x

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:50 am

      It's difficult sometimes isn't it? xx

  7. The Exclusive Beauty Diary
    August 26, 2018 / 6:12 pm

    I really enjoy reading this post! I always believe that everything happening for some reason and that way of thinking really helps me in life.http://www.exclusivebeautydiary.com

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:50 am

      Thanks lovely. xx

  8. Lisa Autumn
    August 27, 2018 / 3:00 pm

    Couldn't agree more with you girl!x Lisa | lisaautumn.com

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:49 am

      Thank you xx

  9. Anastasia
    August 28, 2018 / 2:52 pm

    Fabulous post, thank you for sharing with us all! Up until I was 20 yo I thought that I had to plan everything and go along, now 11 years later I understand that life never goes according to plan and it is absolutely fine :)xoAnastasiahttp://www.natbees.com/

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:49 am

      That's true! I'm still working on it, but hopefully I'll get there. xx

  10. Spencer Wong
    August 31, 2018 / 8:06 am

    Thanks for sharing this with us my dear. You are a pretty girl with life goals, you need to believe in yourself, then everything will gonna be better. :)Wish Review- How to shop on Wish.com? | Gobestshops 🌼

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:45 am

      Thanks so much – that's very kind xx

  11. elizabeth
    September 2, 2018 / 12:19 pm

    Aw it sounds like you are doing so amazing, especially with the job and flat! A huge part of me wishes and longs to be independent like that, I struggle with feeling ill and rely on others to help me, sometimes I feel quite bleak about the future and get anxious about whether I'm happy and kind of get stuck in torturous cycle >< I have a consultation tomorrow so maybe there are little bits of hope for me. I think I need to focus on getting better first <3 sorry to go on haha! I'd love to learn to step back and let things be πŸ˜€ xxelizabeth β™‘ ”Ice Cream” whispers Clara

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:45 am

      Thanks so much lovely lady πŸ™‚ I bet it must be difficult but I hope that you have had some good news at your consultation. It's definitely important to look after yourself, and then you can try to let things be a bit. I still find it so difficult! Thank you for your lovely comment πŸ™‚ xx

  12. Eloise Alice
    September 5, 2018 / 12:35 pm

    such a beautifully raw post. Love ithttp://www.thewhimsicalwildling.com/

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:44 am

      Thanks so much Eloise xx

  13. CHRISTY
    September 6, 2018 / 7:11 pm

    Girl you're killing it! Congrats on the new flat x

    • Jessie-Ann Lewis
      September 7, 2018 / 9:44 am

      Thanks Christy! xx

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