I am a creature of habit. I love being organised. I make lists, I have daily rituals that I live by, I plan my week in my diary and, annoyingly, I find it really, really difficult to be spontaneous. I’ve always been this way and not having a routine sends me into a bit of a (read: huge) frenzy, but after making a decision a few months ago that’s thrown my life into a bit of a whirlwind I’m finding more and more that I’m having to step outside of my comfort zone – and I’m kind of loving it.
Up until this year, I pretty much had my life all planned out. I worked hard in school as I knew what university I wanted to go to, and I knew what I wanted to study. I worked hard in university, I got accepted onto an MA course that I had wanted to do for years. Then, after a short stint of figuring out what I wanted to do, I worked really fucking hard and managed to secure myself a job that I loved. I’m pretty good at making decisions, and once I’ve made one I will do everything in my power to ensure it’s fulfilled.
When it came to my personal life, I’d been in a relationship for a pretty long time and from a pretty young age. It was going the way that most relationships go; I expected for us to start looking towards a future together. Then life happened. I realised this wasn’t ultimately what was best for me, and I decided to end said relationship, which I’d been in for nearly six years. I threw myself into the unknown, went ahead with my plan to own a home, got my perfect gal’s pad, and now I’m not looking back. Instead, I’m looking ahead to the next adventure.
The upheaval that swept across my structured life like a mini tornado taught me that there is beauty in the unknown. It’s good to not have a plan sometimes. Life never works out the way you want it to, and ultimately believing in fate and having the hope that everything will eventually work out for the best is what’s important.
Next up on the list is to live a little more. At the moment, I’m feeling very happy with where I am in life and what I’ve done thus far. I love my job, I’m keen to try new things, to slowly but surely climb the ladder, and to work hard to achieve that. I’ve got my lovely flat, and I want to continue to add those personal touches and make it completely my own. I’m enjoying my gym training, blogging and photography. I have a great group of friends, and I’ve moved away from potentially toxic situations to ensure I’m being the best person I can be. And one thing I’ve realised more than ever this year is that I love to travel, and I want to do more of it, even if I plan every minute detail before stepping on that plane.
That’s not to say I’m going to pack everything in and start island hopping across Greece any time soon (although it’s definitely on the list!). I’ve never been one of these people to move on in life without a plan. I never will be. But I’m trying to go with the flow a little more, and am just letting things be. And it feels pretty good.
Lots of love. xoxo