I say this every month, I know, but I cannot actually believe how quickly this year has gone. It feels like only yesterday I found myself crunching through the snow in my massive, marshmallow-esque puffa coat, and now it’s July, we’re in the middle of a heatwave and I’m sneakily trying to angle the office fan towards me instead of my colleague in a bid to get more air. I thought I’d write a little update post, a reflective look shall we say, at what has happened in the past six months, because my life is, in some ways, completely different to what it has been for many years.
2017 for me was the “year of change”. I finally started a full-time job in an industry that I have aspired to work in for many years. I moved back to Cardiff, got myself a little flat that I adore, and made so many friends and memories along the way. I scooted up and down the country with work, I got myself a promotion in the process, and I feel like I’m finally trundling along on my career path and I loved every minute. I graduated with a Distinction in my MA, I was nominated for a Journalism Award, and I felt like I was embracing all things adult.
Additionally though, I feel like I lost myself a little bit towards the end of last year. I started reverting to old habits, where I’d be going out constantly and, while I was extremely focused career-wise, I wasn’t focusing on myself outside of work. My general health deteriorated, I wasn’t blogging or being creative, and even my strict work out regime slacked a little. I feel like it resulted from what I can only describe as a lack of commitment in my relationship, and it left me feeling pretty lonely in the process. However, I vowed that 2018 would be different. I wanted to focus on myself, my health (both physical and mental), and I generally wanted to feel like me again. I definitely feel like I have achieved that, although things have changed pretty drastically.
Without beating around the bush, I am now a single lady for the first time in six years. It was a decision that was not made lightly and I won’t discuss it on here as I want to be respectful, but it’s been really strange getting used to being on my own after being with someone, who I loved very much, since I was just 18. It’s crazy because in those six years I’ve grown from a teenager into an adult. I’ve graduated university, twice, I’ve moved out from home, I’ve worked in London and Cardiff, and have found myself settled in a city that’s different from the town I grew up in. I’ll forever be grateful for those six years, the memories we shared and the things we did and learned together, but sadly things change, and sometimes it turns out that you’re living very separate lives and have very different end goals.
There comes a point where you have to decide whether to stay in a situation that is comfortable, but ultimately isn’t working anymore, or whether you take the leap outside of that comfort zone and embrace all things new and different and ultimately terrifying. Because it was terrifying for me, stepping away from something that was so familiar, especially as I absolutely hate change and all that comes with it. The first few weeks were extremely difficult, but I surrounded myself with good friends, got lots of exciting events planned for the summer, and threw myself into work and my fitness regime. Looking back now, I know that I’ve made the right decision for me and while it was hard, I’m looking forward to embracing the spontaneity that this new chapter of my life brings.
I set myself clear goals for 2018 back in January, to focus on my career, travel more, work on getting myself back in shape by signing up for a half marathon, start seriously looking into buying my own place, and I wanted to focus on myself. And I’ve done just that…
Aside from a few difficult weeks during the springtime, 2018 so far has been pretty amazing. One goal was to travel more, and so far this year I’ve visited Paris, holidayed in Majorca, worked in Cornwall, Nottinghamshire and The Cotswolds, a trip to Canada is on the cards, and I’m also heading away to Center Parcs for Christmas with the family. I think the one thing I’ve learned since my breakup, is that I need to be more spontaneous. I find it really difficult to do anything without a plan in place, but I’m really enjoying branching out and getting more places ticked off my travel bucket list.
I also have really upped it when it comes to my fitness regime. It’s something I lost focus of back in 2017, although working all over the country made things difficult. Back in January I bit the bullet and signed up for the Cardiff Half Marathon, which is taking place in October this year. It has been one of my goals for many years and, despite signing up only being able to run a 5km, I’ve pushed myself and ran my first 10km race back in March, completing the course in under 1 hour. I now aim to run a 10km distance once a week, and it’s amazing how much more focused and determined I am since getting back into fitness properly.
I’ve taken fitness and training a step further too, by signing up to a regime with a Personal Trainer. I never thought to get one if I’m honest, but I’ve absolutely loved the sessions and am finally feeling body confident again after struggling for the last two/three years. I’ve learned so much in the time I’ve been taking the sessions and it’s amazing to finally feel good about myself again.
Another big and extremely exciting change is that my goal of saving for my first home has been accomplished. I’m keeping it on the down low for now as things work their magic behind the scenes, but hopefully I should have some exciting news in the next few weeks!
So, what about the rest of the year? My main focus is to just keep working on myself, to experience more, to continue working hard in my job and in the gym, and to settle in what could be my very first home! It’s all really exciting and I’m looking forward to what the next six months will bring.
Lots of love. xoxo