Well, it’s been a bloody whirlwind of a few months. Living out of suitcases, rushing back and fore to catch trains, staying in a hostel and taking every opportunity to my build my CV that’s come my way. But now, it’s done. I’m heading back to Wales for a little while to concentrate on finding permanent work and building my freelance portfolio, and boy do I need to take time out.
I’m absolutely exhausted. I won’t lie, I don’t know how I’ve done it. I guess when you want something so much you’ll move waves to make it happen, but now it’s time to refocus and, most importantly, recharge.
When I first realised I’d be heading back to Wales without a plan for the future, I was absolutely terrified. You see, I need structure, and my life lately has been far from structured. I’m more than happy to be moving back home for a bit – I miss my family and friends, and hardly ever get the chance to see Dan anymore – but not knowing what I was doing and whether all the work I’d put in had been worth it was so scary for me. I almost felt like I was taking a step back, and experiencing knock backs when it came to interviews and job applications left me wondering whether I should just pack it in altogether.
Now though, I’m seeing this lull before the next chapter in a totally different light. It’s a little break, a chance to sift through my portfolio, to work on my writing skills, to blog my butt off and to take time to apply for work opportunities and pitch my ideas to publishers. I’ve been given lots of words of wisdom from some of the people I’ve met in the industry, and have definitely come round to see that this could be a really positive thing for my career.
It’s also a chance to look after myself for a change. Let’s just say living out of a hostel means I am craving my home comforts. I’m so excited to get back into a routine at the gym, to have cosy nights tucked up watching telly in bed, to start cooking properly again (never want to see another “healthy” microwave meal in my life), and to take long walks by the sea. I can meet friends, go on date nights with Dan, actually have time to see my family instead of just popping in before I head back, and can take my dogs out for long winter walks.
I hope that in a few weeks I’ll have something permanent. I’m still waiting to hear back on applications and will keep on hunting, but for now some peace and quiet is definitely what I need. London, you were an absolute pleasure and I’ll hopefully see you real soon. But for now, my cosy home and the Welsh coastline awaits.
Lots of love. xoxo